Ahh, Summer Time

It's weird, living in your college town during the summer. I mean think about it, you come here to go to school and that's it, but when you live here it's different. This is now your town. Your life is here now, the only thing back home are a few friends and your family. And If you're like me, you don't really want to go home because you risk the chance of seeing your ex-boyfriend.

Even thought I'm happy, and even though I hate to admit it, he still takes a toll on my mind every now and then. I do think of him, and how he's doing and if he's happy. But I don't want to talk to him, and I don't want to hear about him or whether or not he's dating someone or anything like that.. I just wish him well.

This summer holds a crazy amount of potential to be wonderful. I'm hoping and praying that it will turn out to be everything that I hope it will. I have plans, and work, and a boy. This boy is turning my world upside down. It's fantastic. I never thought I would feel like this again, I never thought I would experience butterflies when someone kissed me again, and I have with him. It's amazing and terrifying at the same time. Because with everything he already knows about me, he has the ability to break me, and he knows it. But I honestly think I have the same ability to do to him and I think he knows it as well. I don't know about him, but I'm falling hard and fast like I usually do but this time is different. I don't know how, but it is. I can just tell.

It's completely insane the effect he has on me. He drives me crazy in the most incredible ways and I honestly cannot get enough of him, I just hope I don't annoy him. I hope that I have the same effect on him. I hope he likes me just as much as I like him and this confusion is starting to bother me a bit, but I'll be patient and let him come to me. I will be here for him through whatever. I will. I'm his, and he makes me really happy. He's mine. It's perfect.

This is life, and I'm gonna live it.