This is Bad

So.. I think I'm really beginning to move on.
and I'm getting my hopes up over a boy, that I probably shouldn't get my hopes up for. I keep telling myself not to, but it's kinda hard.

I'm really not wanting to get into a relationship either.. so, I don't know.
This is bad, emotions, and the heart are not easy to control all the time.
I feel bad too, I feel guilty for kind of moving on already. He meant so much to me, but I just can't be with him anymore. Why dwell you know?

I wish I could talk to him about this stuff, but I can't. I can't hear his voice, and I'm not gonna be able to just be his friend. There is just way to much history behind us and I had to write this down, even though I know he'll probably read this, but at the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more that what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

This is one of those times. My emotions are letting me know that I'm okay, that I don't need him and that I can move on without him. Although, I do kinda feel I probably won't get married.. cause I honestly can't see myself marrying anyone else, but for now, I'm very happy. For once, I'm happy (:

This is life, and I'm gonna live it.