We talked, and I mean TALKED about nothing and about everything that has been happening to us. Like two old friends catching up. It didn't hurt. IT DIDN'T HURT. I know, I think it's unbelievable. He said the same thing though, he said he was surprised it didn't hurt either. We ended up talking on the phone for an hour and a half (I personally wanted it to be a 15 minute bitch fit and then be done with it) and it turned out to be kind of nice. I missed him. He's my best friend after all.
And I know I said we'd never get back together, but we established that we don't know what the future holds. We also decided that sometime in the future if we wanted to, we would try again but that for now, we need space and time away from each other. We need to grow and heal ourselves before we try again.
As for me, I'm happy. I'm loving my life right now. I'm kind of talking to a guy, not really though and I already told him I don't want a relationship, but I enjoy his company and he enjoys mine. I guess we'll see where things go. I called Alex today as well, we talked about random shit like Harlem shake videos, and the gallon smashing video. We also talked about spring break and I agreed to let him take my guitar to the beach (although I'm kind of regretting it, I don't want anything to happen to it).
He called me "babe" today on accident and we both caught it. I expected it to tug at my heart strings a bit, but surprisingly once again, it didn't. I think this may be the new beginning of a friendship we once had and lost. A turning of a page. Maybe, just maybe, I'll truly get my best friend back. I guess I'll just have to sit and see what the future holds. After all, it is filled with endless possibilities..
This is life, and I'm gonna live it.
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