His smile makes me smile. I can't help but look at him. He's gorgeous in my eyes. He's funny and goofy. I catch him staring at me and I can't help but wonder what he's thinking about. I turn to mush whenever he's around. It's weird how much he affects me and on a regular basis.
He has these perfect dimples on his face and when he smiles he lights up a room. His eyes are a gorgeous green and his hair is soft, dark brown. He's warm and soft. Why does he affect me like so? He is sweet and easy to be around.
Shouldn't love be easy? It shouldn't be complicated. So why is it? I'm running in circles. Telling myself to love him and then not to. I'm doing this to myself. I'm torturing myself. Falling for a guy who is unavailable... I need to stop. To find someone new. But how I do I do that? How do I pretend to be interested in someone else when I'm completely smitten with someone else?
He's not mine. He's not. Can I honor that? I HAVE to. Am I able to? Am I strong enough? Can I prove it to myself? Can I admit it to him that I am really the one for him? I'm worth it. I know I am. Can't he just believe me? I'm perfect for him. I know I am. Can't he just see that? He belongs with me.
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