How do I muster up the courage to leave this behind me? Can I leave this behind me? My feelings? My heart?
Is it true.. does the boy of whom I barely know and who knows nothing of me, already have my heart? I hope not. I pray not. I can't take the pain of heart break again. NOT AGAIN.
So how do I stop myself? How do I keep from liking him? He's roommates with two of my good friends. I'd do anything for them. Him too. So do I stay away? or do I stick around and push through it?
I am strong. I'm stronger than this. I'm stronger than anyone and everyone estimates. So how do I make it apparent? Do I throw on a tough exterior or do I put on a tough interior? Do I not let anyone in? or do I push everyone away to begin with?
No I can't do that to myself or anyone else. I just need to be intelligent with who I let in and who I don't. So, do I push him out completely or not at all? Is it possible to be in between? or is it just one or the either?
I feel liberated. Free of all this worry now that it's out for the world to see. But I do still need a good amount of questions answered. I think I can answer them myself I just need to listen to my heart and go with time at my side. Be humble and soft. Be a GREAT person first and a FANTASTIC friend second. I need to love me before I can begin to love anyone else and figure out what I need first before I can worry about the needs of someone else. Now, I can begin to be at peace with myself and the others around me.
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Is it true.. does the boy of whom I barely know and who knows nothing of me, already have my heart? I hope not. I pray not. I can't take the pain of heart break again. NOT AGAIN.
So how do I stop myself? How do I keep from liking him? He's roommates with two of my good friends. I'd do anything for them. Him too. So do I stay away? or do I stick around and push through it?
I am strong. I'm stronger than this. I'm stronger than anyone and everyone estimates. So how do I make it apparent? Do I throw on a tough exterior or do I put on a tough interior? Do I not let anyone in? or do I push everyone away to begin with?
No I can't do that to myself or anyone else. I just need to be intelligent with who I let in and who I don't. So, do I push him out completely or not at all? Is it possible to be in between? or is it just one or the either?
I feel liberated. Free of all this worry now that it's out for the world to see. But I do still need a good amount of questions answered. I think I can answer them myself I just need to listen to my heart and go with time at my side. Be humble and soft. Be a GREAT person first and a FANTASTIC friend second. I need to love me before I can begin to love anyone else and figure out what I need first before I can worry about the needs of someone else. Now, I can begin to be at peace with myself and the others around me.
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